Today I had to go back to the vanilla world after almost of week without it. I was ready to report on how much it sucked. I expected to slip out feeling subbish. I expected some of that old anger to return. I expected to run into the grocery store lady. I thought I might actually go back to fighting for control, and maybe even need to be reminded of my place.
But none of that happened.
Instead, I thought a lot about nijntje’s post, Favorite Old Shirt. I texted my Master from time to time. I pondered my goals with this blog, and thought about its future and purpose. I read posts from other long term couples living 24/7 D/s (more than I could list here) and saw myself in their words – both in the present, and in my future. I took some of their advice, their life lessons to heart. I worked, and focused on my the ways I was meeting Mr.R’s expectations, following the rules, meeting goals, being submissive. I thoroughly enjoyed my usual routines, whether D/s, or not.
I had a good day.
To my fellow bloggers, don’t question your place in the scheme of things. You’ve helped this submissive have a good day. You’ve made her feel validated in her purpose and place. You’ve stretched her mind, and given her positive, attainable goals. You are doing good.