Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

Marianne Williamson (not Nelson Mandela)

When I first started this post, I honestly didn’t know where I was going. In fact, I started writing this before I even had a blog. What I did know was how much better I felt as a submissive, how much better of a person I became in my vanilla life. I wanted to share how awesome I felt, and how I saw that affect on others around me. But I couldn’t explain it. It was inexplicable. I didn’t know why I was a better person, or even what I was doing that was different. Which made it nearly impossible to talk about. It was however, the primary reason I asked Mr.R to commit to D/s in a 24/7 lifestyle. In actuality, I didn’t know anything about the lifestyle, and had literally zero idea of the community. I only knew that I felt better, even with the small amount of submissiveness I had taken on.

This weekend my family and I traveled, and I stumbled across this quote at a coffee shop. That was when I realized what had happened to me, who I had become, and why I saw that positivity in others. I had become my own light. I had let go of my fears. The fears of my own desires, fears of who I was supposed to be, fears of what others would think of me, fears of what I would think of myself.

My original post was a sample of two stories where the release of my fear, and then becoming my best self let others do the same. My original post rambled on quite a lot as I tried to explain what I felt, but didn’t understand, so I’m not going to post it. Honestly, it would bore you. What I will note is how much I noticed it in my job and in my parenting, my daily vanilla life. None of the people I interacted with had any idea of the change I had made, at least not directly. Mr.R and I are ‘in the closet’ so to speak, with our D/s life. (Actually, only those of you who read this blog know this side of the real me.) However, what they did all notice was a very strong change in me. As I became more enlightened, more secure, so did they. I saw them shine.

My submission liberated me from my fear, boosted my confidence, and automatically liberated those around me.

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