Last night I asked one too many questions about exactly what would happen if I did fuck myself in the middle of the night. "If you made yourself cum, you'd be punished," Master went on, but I already knew the answer. I suppose I wanted to hear him say it, describe it just to prove … Continue reading The state of things.
I think I was always submissive. No one has ever seen me that way, and would probably think the opposite. I am known as a fighter. People have thought of me as someone who wants things my own way. It isn't true. It never has been. I just share my thoughts and ideas, while others … Continue reading I am what you made me.
This is a real question I have. No, I'm not talking about topping from the bottom. Nor am I talking about my dynamic specifically. It might be more accurate phrased differently. Especially since I can hear your knee-jerk reaction. I heard mine. Hit the table, knee still hurts... But seriously, if you know anything about … Continue reading Can a submissive train a Master?
This is my third post in a series on subspace, as promised, though it is a bit later then I intended. With my imposter fears, I almost abandoned the thread all together, but when I saw it half done I remembered how important this particular story is. I learned my lesson the hard way, but … Continue reading Do you abandon safety in subspace?
My Master rarely gives me assignments, but he did last month concerning subspace. It happens to coincide with my next 30-Days topic, which is also on sub-space, so ta-da! Before describing subspace, I think it is important to separate it from the 'feeling' of submissiveness. They are really quite different, and should be recognized separately. … Continue reading Do you want to play in subspace?
Over the past couple weeks I have been able to wear my leather slave collar out in public pretty consistently. This is mostly because we've been away from our vanilla life and kids, hanging out at our other house. It's a fun and safe place for us to play in in a truly full time … Continue reading Umm, excuse me. My collar is up here.
I have been trying to describe what submission feels like, or more accurately what it is to feel submissive, to someone who doesn't know or understand it. It is amazingly hard. In speech, expressing our emotions, our desires, we call it a 'feeling'. "I want to feel submissive." "I am feeling submissive." Phrased like that, … Continue reading What’s in a feeling?
Wow, I can't believe how long it has been. (So much for my 3 posts a week rule... oops.) I am still here, however, and have so much catching up to do. There were so many great prompts I had really wanted to participate in, some I even half way wrote out early. I will … Continue reading Hello world! I am still alive, and I have missed you!
I think a D/s relationship, especially a 24/7 D/s relationship requires an unusually high level of trust. Higher then most relationships, higher then a standard vanilla relationship. It also fosters and grows a heightened level of trust, making the need and feeding of trust cyclic. I think a great deal of that trust building comes … Continue reading Trust is a five-letter word.
Spanking has got to be the gateway drug into D/s and BDSM in general. And why wouldn't it be? Spanking is the best! I, personally, can't seem to stop talking about it. I even had to make a whole category. A standard leather flogger. Flogging is the next step up, spanking's big sister, if you … Continue reading Flogging, a girl’s best friend.