Last night I asked one too many questions about exactly what would happen if I did fuck myself in the middle of the night. "If you made yourself cum, you'd be punished," Master went on, but I already knew the answer. I suppose I wanted to hear him say it, describe it just to prove … Continue reading The state of things.
I think I was always submissive. No one has ever seen me that way, and would probably think the opposite. I am known as a fighter. People have thought of me as someone who wants things my own way. It isn't true. It never has been. I just share my thoughts and ideas, while others … Continue reading I am what you made me.
This is a real question I have. No, I'm not talking about topping from the bottom. Nor am I talking about my dynamic specifically. It might be more accurate phrased differently. Especially since I can hear your knee-jerk reaction. I heard mine. Hit the table, knee still hurts... But seriously, if you know anything about … Continue reading Can a submissive train a Master?
This is my third post in a series on subspace, as promised, though it is a bit later then I intended. With my imposter fears, I almost abandoned the thread all together, but when I saw it half done I remembered how important this particular story is. I learned my lesson the hard way, but … Continue reading Do you abandon safety in subspace?
My life has brought about a lot of changes lately. I have moved... twice-ish. Bought and sold a house. Started and stopped jobs a few times. 2019 was a transformative year for me in a lot of ways. I recently made another major change in my life, and am beginning a new phase. It has … Continue reading My 2020 blog. What do you want to see?
I unwittingly started a series on subspace. Submissive Guide also has a great thread, and not one to be outdone, I will write at least twice as many... *checks submissive guide's thread* Crap, they've got eleven. ELEVEN posts! Okay, I'll let them outdo me. Their thread is great. 🙂 But it is missing something... My … Continue reading Do you want to shape your subspace?
Over the past couple weeks I have been able to wear my leather slave collar out in public pretty consistently. This is mostly because we've been away from our vanilla life and kids, hanging out at our other house. It's a fun and safe place for us to play in in a truly full time … Continue reading Umm, excuse me. My collar is up here.
I have been trying to describe what submission feels like, or more accurately what it is to feel submissive, to someone who doesn't know or understand it. It is amazingly hard. In speech, expressing our emotions, our desires, we call it a 'feeling'. "I want to feel submissive." "I am feeling submissive." Phrased like that, … Continue reading What’s in a feeling?
Wow, I can't believe how long it has been. (So much for my 3 posts a week rule... oops.) I am still here, however, and have so much catching up to do. There were so many great prompts I had really wanted to participate in, some I even half way wrote out early. I will … Continue reading Hello world! I am still alive, and I have missed you!
I think a D/s relationship, especially a 24/7 D/s relationship requires an unusually high level of trust. Higher then most relationships, higher then a standard vanilla relationship. It also fosters and grows a heightened level of trust, making the need and feeding of trust cyclic. I think a great deal of that trust building comes … Continue reading Trust is a five-letter word.